I was brushing my daughter's hair the other day and she looked woefully into the mirror and said I hate my head. Why did God give me such a big ugly head?
I put the brush down and asked her if someone at preschool told her she had a big head. She said no and then she asked again why she had to have such a big head. I then started the lecture that contained such brilliant and overused-by-moms-for-the-last-200-years phrases as everything that God makes is beautiful, you are beautiful, God wants you to look just the way you look, I think you are beautiful, etc. Then I listed all the people that think she is beautiful and then she finally started to smile and all was well again in the land of Sarah.
But all was not well in the land of Mommy. Where did she get this idea? I mean her head is big. Both of my kids have large heads compared to other kids their age. I like to think it's because they both have big brains. But a 3 year old wouldn't be comparing head sizes at preschool? Would they?
As I was thinking about all the places should could have gotten this horrible idea that her head is big and ugly, I froze. All of a sudden I knew where she got the horrible idea that her head was big and ugly....she got it from me!
I make jokes frequently about the size of their noggins. And I know I've even had conversations about their big heads while they have been in earshot. Had Sarah gotten the idea that her head was big and ugly from me? That almost broke my heart!
I am the one person in this world who is supposed to make her feel beautiful all the time. I am the one person who is supposed to help her feel good about herself, inside and out, so that she can go out into this mean world with confidence knowing that she is beautiful because her mommy has told her so.
I don't ever want her to think she is ugly. I know there are many days when she will...it's all a part of growing up. But I want her to always know that Mommy believes she is absolutely gorgeous...because to me she is the most gorgeous girl that God ever put on this earth! And one of the luckiest too, because in addition to being gorgeous, God gave her a really big brain that he is covering with a really big beautiful head!