Sunday, January 19, 2014

WIWS, Belly Shot, Update

I'm rolling a lot into one post:

WIWS (Linking up with Fine Linen and Purple)
 Belly Shot

Please excuse the overexposed shots.  I still had my camera set for taking pictures in the gym at the kid's basketball games.  And my little camera girl was in no mood to take extra pictures this morning.


Sweater: Kohl's (1/2 off!)
Pants: Kohl's
Boots: Target

Belly: Week 27 Day 6

Dan called me from work on Friday.  It seems his mom had taken a turn for the worse and Hospice was expecting her to live only a few more days.

He had a business trip to Ireland planned for Monday and had to do some quick scrambling at work to get someone to fill in for him.  While he was doing this, I got online and booked him a flight to Massachusetts and a rental car and started packing his bag.

When he got home from work that evening, the kids and I drove him to the airport.

And now we wait.

The kid's had basketball games yesterday so we went to those.  And Peter had a sleepover scheduled for last night so we picked up his friends.  We attended Mass this morning.  And now Sarah has a friend over.

I am waiting for the phone call from Dan saying it is time to book tickets to join him in Massachusetts.  At the same time, I am also expecting a call from him saying he is coming home because she continues to hang on.

When we first found out that his mom had Leukemia and had 6 months or less to live, one of the first things that popped into my head was the timing of it all.

What if she died at the same time I delivered Rebecca?  What if there were two funerals scheduled at the same time and we were only able to make one? What if Dan was in Massachusetts and I went into labor and he wasn't here to be with me?  What if I delivered Rebecca and she was hanging on and his mom passed away?  Would he go up there and miss precious time with Rebecca or would he stay here and miss precious time with his Mom?

And then I stopped the questions and the worry and and laid it all at His feet. And I felt relief.

What better place to leave my worries about timing and my crazy pregnant lady what-ifs?  Because, after all, He is the one in control of the beginnings and the endings.  No amount of worry or planning on my part is going to change anything.

So I am trusting God's timing and not worrying because...

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. - Jeremiah 29:11


Kathryn said...

What a difficult week, Beth. You continue to be in our prayers.

Cam Wollner said...

That is so much to worry about right now! Prayers!

On the other hand, you look great, despite all the stress! I love baby bump pictures!

Mari said...

I would be worrying about the same things. That's too much to be thinking about. What a blessing to be able to hand it to God. Praying for all of you.

Madeline said...

I will pray for peace. Tuesday is the 4 year anniversary of my MIL passing and I remember all too well the waiting for the phone call.

In spite of everything you look beautiful.

Aimee said...

Beth, you continue to be in my prayers and I am seriously in awe of your faith. You are overflowing with the grace of God.

natalie g. said...

What a heavy burden you are carrying but thank you for being a witness of what it means to trust in the Lord and have joy among sadness.

Billie Jo said...

Praying for peace, my dear friend...

Suburban Correspondent said...

Thank goodness your husband is able to go up there and say goodbye. It will make a big difference to him after his mother passes on.

Kay said...

You have so much weighing on you right now...bless your heart! I'm glad you were able to put all the thoughts aside and let God take care of you. Praying for you and your sweet family as you continue to wait.

Kay said...

You have so much weighing on you right now...bless your heart! I'm glad you were able to put all the thoughts aside and let God take care of you. Praying for you and your sweet family as you continue to wait.

jennwa said...

You are such a pretty pregnant lady !!! My prayers are always with you and your family:)

RR Mama said...

Praying for God's continued peace. On a good note, you look amazing!!! So beautiful.

Busy Bee Suz said...

So much to think about….so much to worry about. Sending good thoughts and prayers to Dan's Mom. This must be so hard for him….I can't imagine losing my mom. And YOU??? you are a rock. (and you look radiant too, I might add)
Your family is surely being tested….and I know you'll come out of this with grace and poise.

Lisa said...

Prayers for you all, Beth! Thanks for the updates.
And you are a beautiful preggo momma. :)